Often in life, I find myself beating my head against that metaphorical
wall muttering, “stupid, stupid, stupid!” More often than I enjoy, believe it
or not, this happens to me. Well, today there I was again. And usually, the
cause of this placement is so blatantly obvious that a solution comes to mind
pretty quickly. This, however, is certainly not one of those times. I don’t
know how I got here. I’m not sure what wrong move I made or thing I said… so I’m
not quite sure what to do to fix it. I suppose instances like these are for
learning.
Have I mentioned how I hate research? But the only thing I
really know to do is dig in my memory and try to find that one misstep that
shifted me onto the wrong path without my noticing it. Feet: they can be sneaky
little devils sometimes.
The worst part about it all is my phone has been dead for
days, since I've misplaced every single one of my chargers. I can’t even give my
best male girlfriend a call so that he can have a good laugh at me and then
help me figure out exactly what I did. I lost my imaginary friend a few years
ago, so that’s no help either.
After burning through each of these options that would have
made my thought process move along with a little more ease and grace, I realize
that this time I’m on my own. The funny thing is, on my own is usually how I’d
prefer to be. Sure, I love my friends and family and I spend a healthy amount
of time with them, but I really like my
alone time. And I enjoy fixing things… when they’re things I can look at and
touch.
Well, I’m not really even sure what this thing is, but I can’t look at or touch
it… so that’s a problem. Although I’m not sure what I’m going to do about this, I’m learning a little about myself
as I try to figure it out. It’s past time for me to
pay my most beloved friend a visit, because I sure do miss him. And I am absolutely more dependent on other people than I ever thought I was.
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